School is a lot better now. I got my schedule changed and everything just works better now. I'm now taking Marine science instead of earth science, and we're going to Atlantis, you know, the aquarium? Yeah. I haven't gone on a field trip outside of chorus related things in a WHILE. I'm excited! But also, due to no longer having a lab period every other day, I now have a an every other day study hall. It's a weird feeling, actually. But, I've already figured a way out of it, and I'll be spending it with Cims, helping her grade things and work on things and yada yada. It'll be fun. My english teacher I think, is completely insane. I think she was once a really good teacher, but she's old now, and she gets so distracted, she forgets why she's yelling at us. No joke. My math teacher, however boring/creepy, is a really good teacher and I hope I catch up with my weird math pattern. Concert choir is going good I suppose. Not much going on there actually. I suppose that's it on the school front. But this was the least of my events to happen.
So, on Friday after school, I saw Wicked with my mom and dad. Let me tell you, I feel bad for anyone I ever bashed about this show. It really is amazing. The music & the lyrics are flawed most definitly, and they are no where near the best out there, but just the whole experience of the whole show is beyond amazing. It was much better the second time, and I'm glad I went again. I'm sure I'll be back. Possibly in 6 months. It's not something I'd want to kill. Ha, I also decided not to stage door, but to stay behind in the theatre for a little while longer to steal playbills (: I ended up getting an entire bundle which makes me happy.
The hotel was beyond amazing, it was on 49th and the view was looking down on timesqaure. BRILLIANCE! So, anywho... Saturday afternoon, I saw Spring Awakening. I think it's time for me to say goodbye to this show. I've seen it a million times, I've been there for a long, long time, and now, it's just not doing it for me anymore. All of the things I loved about the show seem so dead now, and all the people I loved have gone. I just feel like there's so much more out there. For the first time I actually felt bored during the show. Maybe I'd see it again if they got a new Wendla, because Socha drives me insane. Beyond insane. When we got out of the show, it was POURING. Like, hurricaning out. They didn't even have the barricades set up and there was someone telling everyone that there wasn't going to be any actors coming out. But I don't think I would have stayed anyway. Sigh... I feel bad, but it's true.
Saturday night was fantastical. I saw In The Heights from aruguably the most amazing seats in the theatre. I love everything about this show. How it's new, how it's fresh, how it's something I won't see again right away, how the energy on the stage is at maximum, how the show is constantly sold out, how the cast is always so into it and so excited to be there, the playbills, all of it. I can't even explain it. I just love the show. There isn't too much to say other than gushing over how amazing this show is, haha.
So, now for the ohmigod freakout moment. Sunday morning, I lottoed Rent. Yeah, the final Rent lotto, the one where thousands of people showed up for a measly 20 names called? Yeah. That one. I had no chance in hell, and I knew that, but, I knew i'd regret it for the rest of my life if I didn't at least try. Wouldn't you know, I WON! AH. It was the most insane, crazy, fantabulous, beyond words moment of my life to that point. God, it was so surreal. People were pulling at me and I had to sign a waiver because they interviewed me and I talked to the producer and I freaked out, and I was shaking so hard, ... it was crazy. So after I won, Nix, Jen & I went to John's pizza and had some well, pizza! And tried to calm down a little because the three of us were going to the final show of Rent. Uhh that didn't happen too well xD
We had to calm down a little though, we were seeing [title of show!] This show is EFFING AMAZING. I love love love love love this show. It was so histerical and amazing and my god I loved it so much. I got to backstage afterwords also! I talked to Susan for at least 20 minutes, it was... crazy. Susan than drew a monkey on my playbill. You know. Monkeys and Playbillss! For my birthday. I loveeee her. I wish I could say more, but, I really can't. Other than I'll be back, for sure.
Now for the OMGLEGASP craziness... Rent.
Rent just means so much to me. It's not that it changed my outlook on life, or that it took me out of a dark place, or anything overly dramatic and too played up like that, but it literally and blankly gave me something to love, and it brought me to so many amazing people that I wouldn't know as of right now. Not everything I experienced with Rent was positive, but I look back on those things and know I wouldn't be who I am today if it wasn't for those things. I really can't get anyone else to understand the passion and love I have for this show, because it doesn't really make sense, but that's okay. Just knowing that I won that lotto and that i'd be at the last show was more than I could handle.
The show itself was... incredible. It's like, imagine doing something you absolutely love more than anything in the world, but knowing you could never do it again, at least not for a long, long time, and it would never ever be in that same place with those same people, surrounded by amazing people... Yeah, that was me. I pretty much cried throughout the entire first act, but then I just kind of stopped. The entire second act I sat there, and I was watching the show, but I must have had a glossed over look on my face. I was just thinking and watching at the same time, thoughts were swirling around my head as the act carried on. It was a feeling that i'll never, ever forget. I really can't explain much else. Just that I'm going to miss that feeling inside the theatre, knowing I'm completely at home and accepted in there, and knowing that I'm going to witness a little piece of magic.
Most people were worked up beyond a comprehensive level, in a state of mortal shock and utter dispair. Don't get me wrong, I'm incredibly sad to see it go, and I don't believe it was it's time, and it was my everything for the longest time, but... it's not "gone" as so many people have made it out to be. The messages in Rent don't need to be performed on a Broadway stage to live. There's the 2009-2010 tour, the movie, the movie of the final performance, the OBCR, the Bible, everything. I really miss it, and I know I'll cry the first time I walk by the theatre again and know it's not there for my viewing pleasure whenever the hell I feel like it, but it's not... gone.
I have a lot of people to thank. A lot of people to acknowledge. A lot of people smile at, nod at, write to, cry to... but the bottom line is, Rent is a piece of me that will never die. Thankyou, Jonathan Larson.
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