Die Vampires!

Why yes, it is 12:38 am. Why yes, I have school in 7 hours. Why yes, I cannot sleep.

*sigh*

I just finished 'Of Mice & Men' and it's one of the most depressing books I've ever written. I don't know why I felt compelled to finish it tonight. Now I can't sleep.

I've been listening to [title of show] non stop. It's been making me think a lot, actually. Like, Jen and Cims always 100% agree with me when I say I don't have talent. But they are so stuck up and full of themselves! Maybe, just maybe, they are the vampires. Who is to say I shouldn't try? I mean, I love Jen, but she'd tell anyone they suck because she's afraid they'd get better than her. I don't know, the whole thing is just making me think. I know Jen would say, "you can't appreciate [tos] like I do because I do theatre." But, i'm a theatre person. I am. I am. I am. I'm sick of feeling like I have to prove myself to everyone. 'A Way Back To Then' is one of the prettiest and most relatable songs I've ever heard. When I was 12, I was CONVINCED I was going to be Mimi Marquez on broadway. That's a laugh. But there's no reason (other than enthicity, or the fact the show's gone now) that I can't do it. I really feel like the vampires have been screaming at me.

My. Entire. Life.

This may seem pointless and random, and it is. However, I need to break this rant and random babble-fest down, for I have lessons tomorrow first period. YAYAY. aha, not.

I can't remember if I mentioned this before, so I'm just going to restate, I'm not going to see Spring Awakening for six months. I've decided. I'm leaving it for 6 months, and then I'll go back, just for kicks, and see if I can be interested again. If not, I'm moving on forever. On the SA note, Hair is going to Broadway, and HOPEFULLY Groff is too. In a total non-fangirly way, I seriously and legit love him. He's just so sweet!

Anyway, gotta run. Like I said, lessons, period 1. LE GASP!

<3