I feel burnt out. Almost like, I have no desire to go see any shows anytime soon. Almost like I don't even want to go to the city anytime soon. I just have no interest. I feel like I've practically lived there, and so much has gone on, that I actually need a break. I think I'm going to try to wait until November to go see a show. And I think I want the show that I see to be something completely new. Seeing, I have no interest in seeing Spring Awakening again. I can't go see Rent again. In The Heights is still too much money. I just saw [Title of Show].
Am I really that tied up in having the title of "theatre person" that I'm actually afraid to go so long without seeing a show? I hang out with competitive people too much haha. I need to chill out. There is no reason why I shouldn't be able to take a break if I want to, and I don't need to be called an "elitist, " nor does it make me any less of a theatre person because I need such a break. Besides, going into the city so much will clean me out, and, ultimately, exhaust me. I'm just not interested.
School is simple. I'm keeping up easy. I feel like I have the perfect ballance of easy and difficult in my schedule. I also realize that I've let too many people influence my opinion on my music abilities. Maybe I don't have a killer "solo" voice, but hell, I'm holding my own in Ozman's choir and I don't feel lost or overwhelmed one bit. I can reach all the notes easily, and everything she's asked us to do, I can. I wonder if Mrs. Ozman will tell me that I actually have talent. Because I feel like I do. I feel like Cims and other people around me who have those killer voices made me think I have a terrible one. Maybe I don't. And with the training that Ozman's going to give us, I could become great, right? Who knows.
That's all for today, I suppose. I'm tired, and I have homework to do. Math & English. It looks like I'll have those two every night. At least math. It's easy though, so I don't really mind.
Until tomorrow.
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